You have to decide....to decide.

I wouldn't describe myself as "wishywashy", but I would be the first one to admit that sometimes, I don't make a decision. Sometimes I don't let myself make a decision, because I know the right decision to make, but it's not the decision I WANT to make. Wow, that's really wordy.

Here's what I'm getting at. I decided to make a plan for some obstacles that I am going to be faced with as far as food and beverages go. I know, from past experience, if I don't make a plan, I let everything fall apart. I also know, from past experiences, that if I make a plan for myself (you know.....really say "This is what I am going to do."), then I do it!

If I go into a situation without a plan and undecided on how I will handle a situation, I let other people influence my actions, then I feel out of control, then I am frustrated with myself.

But if I go into a situation knowing exactly what I am going to do, then I feel in complete control of myself, and I am pleased with my actions. That feels better than any beer taste! No matter HOW cold it is.

(Wow....Blogging must be really good therapy, because I can't believe I just typed that, and truly meant it.)

At the big July 4th celebration, while so many others were enjoying their ice cold beers, I was completely fine with my ice cold water (it was really hot out, and the water really did satisfy!) I didn't have to teeter back and forth on deciding if to have a beer or not. I had decided ahead of time what I was going to do. It was so simple and so gratifying.

Tonight I met up with friends. I knew I would not drink. No interest at all in one beer. And we met at a BAR! I comfortably ordered water, then later coffee. The girls all had beers and all I could think about is that my feet weren't going to swell! We had great conversation, good laughs, and nobody cared if I had a beer, or coffee. It was a perfect "Girls Night"!

So, I think it was Tuesday I stepped on the scale at home to "check in". I was pleased with the results. Later in the day, I worried......what if the scale is just broken? Yesterday, right before I woke up, I had a dream that I lost even more! So when I got out of bed, I was afraid to get on the scale. I thought I should just go about my day feeling skinny, like in my dream. Now I just can't stop thinking about the stupid scale!

I want to be back at that happy 160 thing, not at the 170 thing. I had a really good relationship with 170's for a while, but now? Sometimes, you have to move on from things that you enjoy, but that are jus not good for you!

Refresh...I can eat 26 points a day.
I can earn Activity Points by doing exercise.
I have an allowance of 49 points that I can dip into if I chose.
I should drink a minimum of 6 (8 oz) glasses of water each day.

The food I ate today and it's PPV.

Breakfast = 5
Snack = 5
Lunch = 3
Dinner = 11

Total = 24

Activity Points Earned Today = 6
Remaining points from my 49 Points Allowance = -5
How many glasses of water I drank today = 15

"love the life you live, live the life you love"